“They triumphed over him [Satan] by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death” (Revelation 12:11 NIV).
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Poor Daddy. He just couldn’t shake it. Shame weighed him down like a dead body strapped to his back. No matter how many times I told him that God loved and accepted him just the way he was, he couldn’t believe it. That kind of grace was unfathomable, unthinkable, unbelievable . . . especially for a man like him.
How does a body get so low he feels there’s no getting out of the hole he’s dug? How does a soul see beyond the wrong done to him and through him? How does a pierced heart heal when the knife still turns in tender flesh?
I’ve shared how the home I grew up in was lashed with angry outbursts, violent arguments, alcohol-induced mayhem. My dad was an emotionally active volcano with occasional periods of dormancy. He had many vices. Alcohol, pornography, gambling, and illicit relationships with other women—all common knowledge in the small town where we lived.
Six years after I came to faith, and three years after my mom followed my lead, he agreed to go to church with us, but felt God could never forgive him for all he’d done. In that sixth year, my father was on the verge of a nervous breakdown because a business deal had gone awry and he was headed for court. But God dipped His pen in the inkwell and continued writing one of His best stories ever.
One day, in a panic, Dad drove 400 miles, from NC to PA, to try to find my mom who was at a business meeting. When he couldn’t find her, he stopped by a church and asked if the pastor was there. He needed prayer.
That particular pastor wasn’t there, but the receptionist sent him to another. She grabbed a scrap piece of paper and drew a map. “Why don’t you drive on over and find him? I bet he can help.”
Dad jumped back in his car and drove to a church out in the country where he found a man with a hammer in his hand and Jesus in his heart. For several hours, Dad sat with a fellow builder and told him all he had ever done. When my dad finished his confession, the pastor placed his strong arm around my dad’s shaking shoulders and said, “Now, Allan, let me tell you what I’ve done.”
The pastor pulled back the curtain on his own dark past and followed with the subsequent unfolding of forgiveness, redemption, and healing from Jesus.
The way my father explained it to me when he came home was: “That man told me his story. He had done everything I had done. And I knew that if God could forgive him and he could be a pastor, then he could forgive me too.”
That is the power of our story. The Bible tells us, “They triumphed over him [Satan] by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death” (Revelation 12:11 NIV). Think about that. Your story has so much power it is in the same sentence with the blood of the Lamb!
The words “testimony” and “to testify” in a spiritual sense mean to tell how you came to Christ or to speak about a specific work that God has done in your life. It’s not hearsay but a verbal display of what you experienced firsthand. Your testimony is your story.
What turned him around that day in the woods of Pennsylvania? Well, for sure and for certain it was the power of the Holy Spirit that quickened his dead spirit to life. But there was something more. Because this pastor wasn’t ashamed of his story—he wasn’t afraid to tell about his past—Dad saw the healing, forgiving, grace-filled power of Jesus up close and personal. His gaping wounds met the balm of grace through a man who was willing to reveal the most despicable parts of his own story, and how God forgave him. Dad had finally met a man just like him.
Your story is living proof of Jesus’ redemptive power here on earth. When we are not ashamed of our stories but tell how God redeemed our deepest, darkest, dirtiest places, we give hope to desperate sojourners who feel all alone. Suddenly, Jesus isn’t just a man in a book or a face in a painting. He is real.
God, help me to never be ashamed to tell my story but use what You’ve done in my life to help other people see Jesus.
In His Name I pray, Amen.
Now It’s Your Turn
Look up and read 2 Corinthians 1:3-5 and note what happens when we tell our stories. What do you think the words “so that” mean in that verse?
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Loved your Dad’s story!
I call myself, one of God’s prodigal daughters.
It was hard to open up to others, until a younger ass’t., female pastor at my church, told me her story.
We are all the same basically, no one is any worse than another: we are sinners.
The simple act of telling your story, is such a blessing to the broken and struggling.
By telling your past, you will never know…it may help someone let go of that dirty backpack of pain and shame, and hand it over to Jesus!
Bless you, Sharon for your writing ministry.
I get emotional every time I tell it! What a miracle he was.
Thank you so much!
This is a topic I choose to keep tucked away. I know how important it is, I see the healing part so why do I resist digging in deep to rid myself of my secrets of the past? Pain-guilt-shame-perception to name a few. I am reminded just how far the pain in my life has played an important part in who I am today! Gods Grace has lifted me from the quicksand made up of sin , my own doing and cleansed me in the blood of Jesus.
From drug addiction and the lifestyle that comes along with it, to a failed marriage,raising 2 children (learning on the way),to a place of surrender crying out to God I can’t do this on my own!
Flash forward to the present where I have a degree,successful career of 30+ years, Adult children who have given me precious grandchildren. I think its time for me to wholeheartedly acknowledge Gods grace & mercy upon my life and that of my family through “my story”.
Sharing my story even if only on paper, all the pain,shame,guilt will surface.perception through the eyes of others will probably change. One thing I know God deserves my praise and worship for all things good and bad which have made me his daughter,worthwhile in his eyes,truly loved and not alone! I am a work in progress,I am rebellious by nature, I have regrets, All of which were are planned! In his precious love I am set free! God bless
Yes you are free!
Sharon Thank you for this story today. Needed to hear this as I am ashamed of things from my own doing but God has delivered me out of the pit and made a new creation within me. I still struggle and hate the person I was. I’m always thinking…. I don’t know how I could have been so stupid. It’s a hard feeling to shake off but I’m trying. How I love our Lord and Savior. He has given me his grace, forgiveness and shown me mercy and has healed all hearts involved. Thank you Debbie Codding for your story you submitted also! Hugs to you and God bless!
We’ve all done stupid things! Praise God for new beginnings!!!!! When we share our stupid things, it lets people know that they are not alone and that if God could forgive you, then He can for give them.