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Today’s Truth

But if God so clothes the grass, which is alive in the field today, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith!

Luke 12:28

Friend to Friend

There I sat, terrified and confused, in a row of church chairs. Awaiting my surgery the next morning, knowing that I had a hemorrhaged tumor in my head. I didn’t know if everything was going to be OK, and I didn’t understand it. People gathered around me, prayed for me, tried to keep me distracted, but I felt numb. As though my whole world had simply stopped spinning.

My friend at church whispered to me, “God doesn’t give a story like this to just anyone.”

Fast forward a year and a half, and there I laid, numb and silent, in my parents’ bed. For days. I just couldn’t shake the news. I was going to be a mom and then . . . I wasn’t. There was nothing I could do to change it, and I couldn’t believe it.

People would come and go, say words that I didn’t really hear, nor would I remember. And I remained mostly silent. One day a friend climbed on top of the bed with me, with tear-filled eyes, and again the words were spoken to me: “This is part of your story now.”

But I didn’t want it to be.

I had written out a story for our lives and this wasn’t part of it. It didn’t include the loss of a baby and a brain tumor all before the ripe age of 22. This isn’t what I dreamed of when I was a little girl. It’s not what I ever hoped or prayed for.

But it’s my story.

I had carefully laid out my plans. I had dreams for our future on our wedding day. I had crafted the perfect path in my head.

But I’m not the author.

And so, sometimes I just have to take that tight grasp I have on my dreams, and let go. Even when it hurts, even when I only want to grasp tighter to my carefully laid plans—on the good days, the bad days, and everything in between.

If I truly trust God with my life, that means I trust him with every aspect. Each and every word, sentence, and chapter. Even when I feel like I can’t bear to flip the page and see what happens next. Even when I think the next page is going to be wonderful and it turns out to be downright awful.

It’s all part of what makes our faith so scary and yet so beautiful. And because of our faith in Christ, we know that in the end he will redeem all of the scary and seemingly hopeless patches.

Even though I’ve been through some tough times, I love looking back and seeing what God has already brought me through. The hopeless times. The tiring times. The exciting times. Because the truth is, though many of these chapters haven’t been what I had always hoped for, a lot of them are filled with blessings I also didn’t deserve.

I remember a couple days after I found out about my miscarriage and was deep in the pit of grief and decisions, my grandpa showed up for a surprise visit. And I’m glad he did, because his words still ring true with me—“there are better days ahead, kiddo.”

Three months later I got that positive pregnancy test, and I then faced a scary pregnancy full of tests and hospital visits. But today, as I write this, I watch the baby monitor and see my sweet baby boy sleep. My healthy, 16-month-old little blessing, who wouldn’t be here had I not gone through the past few years of trial after trial. And I am thankful for him all the more because of it.

You see, in this life you will wander through phases that are difficult, and phases that are absolutely beautiful. So if you’re in the midst of a rough patch, keep trudging on. It gets better. God does have better days ahead for you. Just trust Him.

Let’s Pray

Lord, some phases of life can be difficult and feel so hopeless, while others are so full of joy. I pray that You would strengthen me through the hard times, and that I would praise You in the good times. I pray that through it all, no matter what, I will boldly place my life in Your hands and trust that You will bring everything together for your good.

In Jesus’ Name,

Amen.

Now It’s Your Turn

What helps you get through the tough seasons in life? Do you have any particular Scriptures that have been encouraging for you?

More from the Girlfriends

I got married in 2012, at the age of 19, and found that marriage didn’t come as easily as I thought it would! My mom had been married over 20 years and felt the same way. Out of this, our marriage ministry, Nitty Gritty Love, was born. We blog about the tough things we face as wives, and how the Gospel should shape our marriages. We’re currently working on our first devotional.

22 Responses to “Trusting God to Write Your Story”

  1. Dear Girlfriends,

    Thank you for sharing. May God bless and help you all.

    Love to each of you because of Jesus.

    Thank you,

    Caroline Krise

  2. Kelly Anne Scoggins says:

    Pray for me please

    • Sherri says:

      Kelly, be encouraged. May HIS peace and love surround you. You belong to God and HE,the creator of EVERYTHING, loves you.

    • Judy says:

      I am Praying for you Kelly Anne Scogggins- God knows your need.

    • Beth says:

      Praying for you, Kelly.

      Psalm 27:13-14Amplified Bible (AMP)

      13

      I would have despaired had I not believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord
      In the land of the living.
      14

      Wait for and confidently expect the Lord;
      Be strong and let your heart take courage;
      Yes, wait for and confidently expect the Lord.

      This scripture has gotten me over the hump more than a few times. God’s GOT you.

    • Marilee says:

      Prayed for you. Thank you for having the strength to reach out and ask for prayer. You are beautiful and so loved by God and he will deliver you from whatever is holding you down.

  3. Mary says:

    Good Morning Kelly
    Saw your request and prayed for peace and comfort and God’s blessing on you today.

  4. I love where it says God doesn’t write this story for just any one. This is your story. Praying for you Kelly Ann.your story is heard in the throne room of heaven.

  5. Janet Kereti-Hollister says:

    I enjoyed this short story. Trials will all come to pass. I’m so happy that at the end you enjoyed more blessings from God with your son. God Bless.

  6. Psalm 55:22. Thank you for your encouragement.

  7. Kristi says:

    Praying for you

  8. Debbie says:

    I just told my husband this weekend that I never imagined our lives would have had so much heartache….and your devotion was what I needed to hear this morning. Thank you for sharing.

  9. JKW says:

    Kelly Anne, Uplifting you in prayer. Wonderful to know that God knows everything you are going through.

  10. G Sadler says:

    Will keep you in prayer. Life is a journey.
    My husband was injured yesterday when he fell off a ladder. He may need surgery and will take weeks to heal. I thank God his head and spine are ok but other fractures. We have no insurance and are in between jobs. It is very overwhelming…unemployed for several years and debt is growing. Please pray for me.

  11. Sue says:

    Whatever you are going thru, be assured, God sees, cares, and will deliver. God bless you!

  12. Looking to him to finish a happily ever after. Hebrews 12:2

  13. Lanette Smith says:

    I really enjoyed this devotion. Very well said.
    Thank you and may God co to us to use your story to touch our lives in the midst of our stories.

    -Lanette

  14. julia says:

    aint that the truth!! life aint easy a lot of trials/hard times/hopelessness. life ain’t all it is cracked up to be. no joy/happiness just sorrow and not fair.

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