Today’s Truth

The LORD said to him, “Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”

Exodus 4:11-12

Friend to Friend
On the far side of a desert, high upon the Mountain of God, a voice called out to Moses from within a curious, fiery bush. He had been tending the sheep of his father-in-law’s flock – going about his normal day-in-day-out tasks on the day that God spoke to him from the flames. On the day that God called Moses to a fresh and fiery mission. A mission of deliverance.

Once a noble prince of Egypt with the world at his feet, he had become a lowly shepherd with dust on his sandals. His crown had been traded in for a staff. The palace days were far behind Moses now. He fled them because of what he had done. Glancing to his left and right to be sure that no one would know what he was about to do, Moses took a horrible situation into his own hands and killed a man. He murdered an Egyptian and covered the death with sand.

Fear and shame bombarded his heart so he fled – away from his dream-filled, royal future to a desert place of humble hiding. The door to his yesterdays was closed. Moses had moved on to a new place. His past was his past and he had no intentions of returning to it. His life was different now. Normal, not noble.

Then God interrupted Moses’ new normal. His plans for Moses were different.


God’s intentions were for freedom – the freedom of His people, the Israelites, who were captives – slaves to Egypt. God called Moses to face the pains of his past so that the Israelites could face a future of freedom. His plans of emancipation required that Moses obey Him, listen to His voice, follow His instructions and trust Him.

Moses quivered and doubted. He made excuses. He felt unfit and unqualified for such a task. But God met Moses at his doubts. He called him to courage and went on to use Moses as an instrument of deliverance, truth, power and freedom.

Yes – Moses made mistakes along the way, but God was powerful in, through and in spite of each one. Through it all, God led as only God can. He led with power. He led with purpose. He led with love. And through Moses, God led His people to a new place of promise and freedom.

On the far side of Charlotte, North Carolina, high upon a mountain in a retreat center, a voice called out to me from within a curious and fiery story. I had been tending to my husband and children, to the laundry and the dishes – writing songs and leading worship – going about my normal day-in-day-out tasks on the day that God spoke to my heart from the testimony of another woman. On the day that God called me to a fresh and fiery mission. A mission of deliverance.

Once a sold-out, dream-filled God-girl, I had become a grace-embracing, yet disqualified-for-anything-big-because-of-what-I-had-done God-girl. My use-me-in-a-big-way-Lord prayers had been traded in for average, can’t-have-a-dream-anymore faith-living. My God-dream days were far behind me. I had fled them because of what I had done in my junior year of college. Glancing to my left and right to be sure that no one would know what I was about to do, I took a stressful situation – an unplanned pregnancy – into my own hands and killed a baby. I robbed my baby of life when I had an abortion and covered the death of my precious child with sands of compartmentalizing and reason.

Fear and shame bombarded my heart, so I fled – away from God – away from my dream-filled, royal future to a desert place of heart-hiding. After a season of brokenness, God brought me to a place of beauty, forgiveness and healing. I was restored and redeemed by scandalous, merciful grace. Then I closed the heart-door to my yesterdays. I moved on to a new place in Christ. My past was my past and I had no intentions of returning to it – or to the God-dreams that swelled my soul as a young, sold-out Jesus lover. My life was different now. Normal, not dream-worthy.

Then God interrupted my new normal. His plans for me were different.


God’s intentions were for freedom – the freedom of His people, the women, who were captives – slaves to their life-wounds. God called me to face the pains of my past so that my Girlfriends in God might face a future of freedom when they hear my testimony. His plans of emancipation required that I obey Him, listen to His voice, follow His instructions and trust Him.

I quivered and doubted. I made excuses. I felt unfit and unqualified for such a task. But God met me at my doubts. He called me to courage and is using my broken-into-beautiful story as an instrument of deliverance, truth, power and freedom.

Yes – I make mistakes along the way, but God is powerful in, through, and in spite of each one. Through each surrendered day, God is leading as only He can. With power – with purpose – with love. And I pray right now that this story – my story – will bring you to a new place of promise and freedom through the grace of Jesus Christ.

What fresh and fiery mission is God calling you to trust Him with, friend?

Let me encourage you to stop with the excuses. I’m living proof that God can free anyone from her shame and use anyone for His purpose.

Step up to the burning bush – into God’s presence. Listen to His voice. Obey. Follow. Take courage. Trust Him with your past and with your tomorrows. Allow God’s grace to direct what your mission should look like.

But I have raised you up for this very purpose, that I might show you my power and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth.
Exodus 9:16, NIV

Let’s Pray
Dear God, with a trembling heart, I ask You to show me the plans you have for me. Bind me to Your Word and to Your strength so I will have the courage to obey. May my brokenness be restored and redeemed for the beauty of Your glory.
In Jesus’ Name I pray,

Now it’s Your Turn
Take a few moments to consider where you’ve come from and where you feel God is leading you.

Some of you may feel this devotion was written specifically for you. Don’t ignore that. Explore it. Let’s take the conversation deeper on the wall of my blog. It’s time to trust God with your yesterdays, your todays and your tomorrows.

Today’s GiG devotion is adapted from Trusting God by Sharon Jaynes, Gwen Smith, & Mary Southerland.

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15 Responses to “Trusting God With Tomorrow”

  1. Deb G says:

    This really hit home for me this morning. Thank you for sharing this. God has a plan for each of us. We can do anything through Him who gives us strength.

  2. Judy Bateman says:

    Thanks for sharing today’s message. There are so many who need to know what was just shared. Have a blessed day.

  3. Diane Rumley says:

    Gwen, God just loves you. Thank you for being faithful to His call, we are the richer for it.

  4. Jeri says:

    God is SO good, i went to bed last night and asked him to ease my mind and heart about being nervous about today. I asked that when I wake up I wake up and seek him and feel refreshed and focused on the tasks that were ahead of me rather than face them with doubt or become anxious. You see I felt God calling me to do more and serve months ago, I’ve prayed about it, got more involved in my church and then the opportunity came up to lead our small group a couple of weeks ago and I froze because self doubt overwhelmed me for all of the same reasons. I’ve since continued to pray and told God I’d try it out, tonight is the first night for me to lead it our group and then I read this devo this morning, God spoke to me through you and this is just what I needed to read. Thank you for continuing to share your story and God love with people like me who need to hear it 🙂

  5. Elisabeth Byers says:

    Thanks for the reminder of where I am at and why I’m doing what I’m doing. God recently also took me out of the desert and has called me to be a small group leader at my church for younger women. I have been divorced twice and had always felt that I wasn’t qualified. My older teenage daughter is starting to make unwise choices and I keep hearing that voice “you shouldn’t be doing this”, “how are you an example to them?”. But I have also found that being honest and real with these young women has been what they are longing for and wanting. Especially in church…. they want to know that they aren’t the only ones that make mistakes and mess up. I just love the reminders in my email when I get devotions such as these.

    • Pam says:

      Elisabeth, your two marriages don’t disqualify you. You are perfect for the job to address pain and point others to Christ. He uses the broken to speak to the broken. We have credibility because we’ve been there. You will rock this small group! You’ve got this because He’s got you. Share from your heart. Hugs!

  6. Tammy says:

    Good morning!! Wow this really hit home for me!! I’ve done some things in my past that I’m certainly not proud of but the one that keeps haunting me is from December 1998…..a decision was made that would forever change my life. After that I didn’t feel worthy of God’s love or mercy. Even though I didn’t do anything and didn’t know anything until after the tragedy occurred, I kept quiet for 8 months out of fear and by letting someone else control me because I was afraid of him….God worked through me for 8 months and finally on Friday August 13,1999 God had enough…..I finally listened to Him and He spoke very loudly and clearly and He said, Tammy this is not your lie, the only thing you are guilty of is being quiet, loving your husband, and being afraid of your husband. God told me that the time had come and it was either me or my husband. That it was time to speak the truth and that there was nothing to fear from my husband because he was in jail and would remain there for the rest of his days. It took me many years and many times back sliding and letting the devil take over but still God never turned His back on me, He was ALWAYS right with me even when I didn’t want Him to be. He led me out of all that darkness, death, and pain and set me on the right path, HIS PATH.

  7. Joy says:

    thank you for your transparency! It is life giving.

  8. Kristi says:

    Jaw on floor, this is exactly where I am right now, and I receive this as a direct Word from God! Thank you, thank you for your transparency!! And thank You Jesus for your handmaiden!!! ❤

    • Kristi says:

      (Couldn’t figure out how to edit my comment, but wanted to add to it…) I’ve literally been in a wrestling match with myself, my reasoning etc for the last few days. When we’ve walked with God, known His voice, then make horrible choices, the condemnation can be a much different animal than if we weren’t seasoned. I wonder if God doesn’t allow some things to give us a fresh perspective of mercy & grace. After the fallout of stumbling, I’ve painted myself in a corner of defeat, telling myself that x+y+z = 1 option only, accepting defeat, but putting the work of the cross completely out of that picture.I started praying 2 nights ago, inviting the truth of God, the truth of His Word, back into the equation. That’s what mercy and grace are all about!!! Without His sacrifice, that equation will always equal to one thing only, no matter who we are. I choose to bow down my will, my intellect & reasoning, my all, to ‘what thus saith the Lord’to ‘what thus saith the Word of God!’ The devil is a liar, “and you, satan, are not welcome in any part of mine & my son’s life!! The Lord rebuke you, your schemes, and lies, destroy your works, in Jesus’ name!!!!”

      ‘Sanctify them by Your truth, for Your Word is Truth!!”

  9. Rebecca Jones says:

    The post and comments just make me think of Romans 8:1, and no condemnation in Christ. We need to stop doing it to ourselves and each other. I am guilty also. As long as we are not abusing our grace and continuing to willfully sin,we need have no fear in His love. And I pray for babies all the time, pregnant women, I have never had anyone tell me about an abortion, I’m sure that must be difficult and something pressed down deep, even if you know you are forgiven. So Father, in Jesus name, I pray for these women to be released from that condemnation,fear,guilt and shame. Let them be loosed in Jesus name from that pain anguish and trauma, and pour your Holy Spirit into the old and deep wounds of the past or even present. The best thing I could ever pray is for for them to know your love.God bless.

  10. Patty says:

    This message above all others spoke directly to me! Thank you GIG for this inspirational message that spoke directly to my heart and soul. This left me believing God has always been with me and is always with me! I’ve been forgiven from God along time ago and believe it more now than ever! Thank you Lord !

  11. julia says:

    this hit home for me as well. thank you for these each and everyday during the week. God bless!

  12. julia says:

    I too wasn’t sure ouw to edit, but wanted to add was holding back/scared on what God is calling my hubby and I to ne doing. (we took a little break because of some things). but I feel that I am ready to get back into it and do few things different.

  13. Melanie❤ says:

    Gwen, I have to say that I admire and appreciate your honesty in telling your story. I thank God for what he has done in your life and I thank you for listening to him and sharing it with others! You are a blessing to me and I thank you for the encouragement that you always give through God’s word!

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