Today’s Truth

“One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, “Do you want to get well?”

(John 5:5-6 NIV)

Friend to Friend

Five-year-old Brooke was sitting in the backseat of a minivan while her mom and I ran errands. “Mommy,” she asked, “Is it worse to pick a scab or pick a mosquito bite?”

“You shouldn’t be picking at either one.” her mom replied.

I glanced back at Brooke as she tried to wipe away the bloody evidence that she’d done both.

Little girls aren’t the only ones who pick at scabs. We do it all the time. Maybe we don’t pick at the brown crusty scabs that form over a flesh wound preventing the skin underneath to heal. But many times we pick at the bitter rusty scabs that form over a soul-wound, not allowing the heart to heal.

Barbara (not her real name) was such a woman. Her face bore the lines and creases of a woman dragging around years of bitterness and regret. She didn’t bear beautiful scars that reflected God’s story of redemption; but rather soul seeping wounds she determinedly picked at and decisively refused to let heal.

Barbara was raised in a “religious” home, the youngest of twelve children. He father drank heavily and made sport of belittling his children and his wife. Her insecure mom always seemed to be tiptoeing through life, and did little to protect her kids from her menacing husband. When Barbara’s dad forced his daughters to parade in front of him in their underwear, her mom remained fearfully silent.

Barbara’s dad told his twelve children that the first four were planned, but the rest were accidents. She was an accident.

To save time, many of Barbara’s siblings took baths together. She remembers her older brother molesting her with inappropriate touching in the bathtub. Several years later, she repeated the behavior by touching a younger neighbor in the same way. And for thirty-three years, Barbara picked at the scabs of shame and bitterness and refused God’s invitation to heal them.

I talked with Barbara for a long time as she recounted her story to me. I reassured her of God’s full forgiveness and underserved grace. I pointed out redemptive Bible verses right there in black and white, and some in red. We talked about the necessity of forgiving those who have wronged us, and forgiving ourselves for those we have wronged. We talked about letting go of the past and moving forward in the present. We talked about the truth that when we come to Christ, we become a new creation, the old is gone and the new has come. After about an hour, I realized that we weren’t getting anywhere.

“I hear what you’re saying,” she said, “but I just can’t forgive myself for what I’ve done, and I can’t forgive my dad for making me this way.”

Friend, hear me on this. This is important. It wasn’t that Barbara couldn’t forgive her dad or herself; it was that she wouldn’t forgive her dad or herself. It wasn’t that she couldn’t leave the past behind; it was that she wouldn’t leave the past behind. And as long as she continued rehearsing the misdeeds in the theater of her mind, she would never be free.

As long as she saw herself as the star of the show who was oh so wronged, but oh so right, there would never be final a curtain call for the story to end. Like a child who continues to pick at a scab, Barbara continued to pick at the scabs of her life, never giving them a chance to heal.

And Jesus said to the lame man who had been lying by the pool for 38 years, and to me, and to you: “Do you want to get well?” (John 5:6 NIV).

I don’t know about you, but more than anything I want to live free of bitterness, resentment, shame and condemnation. So when God says to me, “Do you want to get well,” my answer is always yes. But that means I have to cooperate by forgiving those who’ve hurt me and forgiving myself…to stop picking at the emotional scab and let it go.

Let’s decide to do that today!

Let’s Pray

God, I’ll admit that I sometime pick at emotional scabs. I replay what was done and how it was done. I don’t want to do that any longer. I want to get up off my emotional mat, get up, and walk in freedom. Today I forgive ________ for _________, and will no longer hold the offense against the offender. I also accept your forgiveness for my sin of __________, and will no longer live in shame and condemnation.

In Jesus’ Name,


Now It’s Your Turn

Go back and read John 5:1-14. What changes would the man have to make in his life if he were healed?

Did the man ever say that he wanted to get well?

Why do you think we sometimes would rather stay emotionally unhealthy rather than get well?

What changes would we have to make in our lives if let go of past offenses and past shame?

More from the Girlfriends

It’s time to let go of some things…to get up off of that mat.

In Take Hold of the Faith You Long For: Let God, Move Forward, Live Bold, I reveal the most common reasons we get stuck in our Christian faith. I show you how to break free of all that holds you back, move forward with all that God promises, and live the adventurous faith of bold believing. It’s time to leave behind feelings of inferiority, insecurity, and inadequacy that hold you hostage and take hold of the mountain-moving faith God intends. Let’s uncover untapped sources of confidence and courage, and see how to move from simply knowing the truth to actually living it out boldly in a life marked by true freedom and expectancy. It’s time to get UNSTUCK! (Includes a Bible Study Guide for group or individual study.)

4 Responses to “The Scab You Won’t Stop Picking”

  1. Stephanie says:

    This is a devotional that I needed to hear this morning. I have a few emotional scabs that I have continued to rip open over the years. I prayed the prayer and spoke from my heart. Today, I choose to forgive others and myself. Today, I have a brand new start. Praise God! Thank you Sharon for this devotional ❤️

  2. Barbara says:

    Your devotion today was literally me and my name is Barbara. This past year has been tumultuous emotionally speaking. I’ve had to work very hard at not opening the wounds I received. Satan worked hard too. LET IT GO was spoken so often. I praise Jesus for his precious Word and his clear direction of rest and healing. Being the go getter person I am, resting has been hard to learn. Thanks for the daily reminder that God is good, gracious and kind.

  3. Donna says:

    Bless you for this devotional. God used it today to help me move forward from a situation which has been destroying me for the last year. God very gently used it to tell me I needed to let go of my anger and hurt I thought I had forgiven, but trusting again was tearing me apart. My Father knows all and will care for me and love me. I will trust Him with my future.

  4. Emilia says:

    Hi Sharon, I have bipolar disorder 2 and i struggle with accepting Gods forgiveness and forgiving myself anf others. I dont know if that is part of the illness or just me being disobedient.

    I need to let go and i dont know exsctly how. Please help me. Thank you,


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