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Today’s Truth

For I am poor and needy, and my heart is wounded within me.

Psalm 109:22

Friend to Friend

Some dog owners teach their pups to attack, pursue or chase someone by using the command, “Sic ‘em!” This short, sharp prompt gives dogs permission to aggressively pounce on an enemy or targeted individual.

I sensed this type of request from David to God as I read Psalm 109.

My God, whom I praise,
do not remain silent,
for people who are wicked and deceitful
have opened their mouths against me;
they have spoken against me with lying tongues.
With words of hatred they surround me;
they attack me without cause.
In return for my friendship they accuse me,
but I am a man of prayer.
They repay me evil for good,
and hatred for my friendship.
(Psalm 109:1-5)

Having been betrayed by people in his community, David was furious with the surrounding “wicked and deceitful men.” (V2) Frankly, the details of what had gone down reads worse than the lyrics of a country song. He’d been “spoken against with lying tongues” (V2), and “attacked without cause” with “words of hatred.” (v3) Frenemies threw around accusations and repaid good with evil and hatred. (v4-5)

The sting of betrayal was fierce and deeply personal. Always is, right?

In response, David prayed with a harshness that makes me wiggle uncomfortably.

Appoint someone evil to oppose my enemy;
let an accuser stand at his right hand.
When he is tried, let him be found guilty,
and may his prayers condemn him.
May his days be few;
may another take his place of leadership.

(Psalm 109: 6-8)

And that’s just the beginning of his poignant prayer! The pains and strains of it all made him physically sick and depressed.

But you, Sovereign Lord,
help me for your name’s sake;
out of the goodness of your love, deliver me.
22 For I am poor and needy,
and my heart is wounded within me.
23 I fade away like an evening shadow;
I am shaken off like a locust.
24 My knees give way from fasting;
my body is thin and gaunt.
25 I am an object of scorn to my accusers;
when they see me, they shake their heads.

(Psalm 109:21-25)

He was plumb wrung out, y’all. Wrecked emotionally. Overwhelmed and angry.

Ummm… yeah! I get that!

I imagine we all do.

Essentially, David was shouting from the top of his soul-lungs, “Sic ‘em, God!”

Help me, Lord my God;
save me according to your unfailing love.
27 Let them know that it is your hand,
that you, Lord, have done it.
28 While they curse, may you bless;
may those who attack me be put to shame,
but may your servant rejoice.
29 May my accusers be clothed with disgrace
and wrapped in shame as in a cloak.

30 With my mouth I will greatly extol the Lord;
in the great throng of worshipers I will praise him.
31 For he stands at the right hand of the needy,
to save their lives from those who would condemn them.

(Psalm 109:26-31)

I read his prayer and recognize it’s okay, good even, to rise up against evil.

It’s okay to hate evil and injustice.

I also see that the place to let my anger rise up is in prayer. David hashes it out with God. I should too.

I’ve been on the receiving end of betrayal and false, unfair accusations. I occasionally get mean emails. I’ve lost sleep, racked my brain to understand, and have cried out for God to be my Defender.

Psalm 109 reminds me that it’s okay to address wickedness and feel my feelings honestly, as long as I do so in an intimate dialogue with my ever-present Lord who’s sovereign, good and loving (v21).

Let’s Pray

Sovereign Lord, Even when we act horribly, You act with justice, love, righteousness, mercy and compassion. I bring You the burdens of my heart today, Jesus. You know my pains and strains. You know the people who cause my blood to boil and who have wronged me. Contend with them, Lord. Move as only You can, as my Defender and Deliverer for Your glory. Heal and help my heart to walk in Your strength, dignity and joy today.
In Jesus’ Name,

Amen.

Now It’s Your Turn

Read Psalm 109. Does this chapter bring anything to the surface of your heart that needs hashed out with the Lord? If so, spend some time in prayer or write a prayer response on the wall of my blog.

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5 Responses to “Go Ahead and Feel Those Feelings”

  1. Sherri says:

    Amen!! In the world today, you can plainly see so many hurt and disappointed people. It is understandably why so many are angry…BUT GOD! So I will continue to magnify the Lord and exalt his name!!

    Thank you for today’s lesson.

  2. Beth says:

    Good Morning Gwen,

    I want to thank you for letting God use you to minister to me and so many people. The God of the universe is working with me. For a while now he has been impressing on my heart the word dignity. I am working my way through the body aging.
    As a women I want to look like I did when I was 20. Not happening. God is working with me to age with dignity. I want my family (my children and grandchildren)to see my body skin starting to wrinkle and sag as God would want it. It is hard to age in this world when we are lead to believe that our exception are that we should be perfect.
    Then today in your devotional dignity came up again. “Heal and help my heart to walk in Your strength, dignity and joy today.
    In Jesus’ Name,”

    I pray I walk in the way God would want me too…with His dignity
    So my family will catch it.

    Thank you,
    Beth

  3. Trish says:

    As I read today’s devotion I kept thinking about our Law Enforcement and all that’s going on in the world right now. We have to Pray for their safety every day. May God’s Hands be upon them.
    May those who are doing all the destruction be dealt with as God judges us all. May we all do our part when God asks our participation.

    Thank you Jesus Christ for all your many blessings. Thank you for this day. Guide and direct our paths. I love you Jesus.
    Amen 🙏❤️

  4. KRYSTAL says:

    As I read today devotion I couldn’t help but think about forgiveness. Yes, I believe we serve a JUST GOD and to me that makes him a GREAT GOD. I understand all the anger and hatred that is going on in the world and I believe that GOD is dealing with it. We individuals have a part to play in all this. The part is forgiveness. I don’t agree or side with violence or hatred or anger. The one thing in all, that is more powerful and great than the violence, hatred, and anger is GOD’s LOVE. 1 Cor 13:13 says “So now FAITH, HOPE, and LOVE abide these three; but the greatest of these is LOVE.” I know our country is hurting. I know things have been literally ripped apart. BUT, if we don’t make the time to forgive. We will be lost. Because with forgiveness you’ll find Gods love.

    Lord, I come today humbled and hurt. I believe and trust in your will for what ever must be done. Comfort me and strengthen me so that I can lead not only my friends and families to you but also my enemies. They have yet to learn of how deep your love goes. Guide me to showing them so they can be close to you as I. Amen

  5. Georgia says:

    That prayer is a place the Lord has taken me several times. Ìt is a healing place …being naked and bruised through betrayal, injustice and being defenseless… but when you find the feet of Christ in such agony…healing, comfort, hope and rest comes. Eventùally He refreshes and shows Himself as the Shield and Lifter of our head. In time it becomes a place if rest and rejoicing.

    Thank you iñdeed.

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