Today’s Truth

Today’s Truth

Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame. (Psalm 34:5, NIV)

Friend to Friend

For years my abortion story went untold. It was a secret held tightly by a locked heart – my worst nightmare and darkest memory. Not something I wanted to talk about. Certainly not a story that I thought could be used for good.

Conversationally, it was unapproachable… simply impossible to discuss. On the rare occasion when I allowed my mind to go there, I wished I had a different story: one of life, not death – of joy, not pain. A story of a time when I’d made the best choice, not the worst choice.

But that’s not my story.

And because it’s not, for years I was convinced that my mistakes demanded silence. That because of what I’d done and where I’d been, I was bound to be quiet whenever the sacred topic of life arose. Certainly, I had no right to speak… or so I believed. Shame buttoned my lips.

Then I came to know a deeper grace. A grace found in the testimony of redemption. God’s grace. A grace that testifies of hope, healing and restoration. A grace found in the sharing and releasing of my broken heart-places. Amazing grace that boasts in the truth that all things can work together for good to those who love God and who are bound to His will and purpose (Romans 8:28).

By the grace of Jesus Christ, I now understand that – knowing what I know and having been where I’ve been – I am actually uniquely qualified to speak and encourage others toward life… forgiveness… and hope.

A few years ago, the Lord led me to participate in a post-abortive Bible study and a weekend retreat that allowed my heart to experience healing in places that I didn’t even know were wounded. I was given the opportunity to sift through my grief, to name my child, and to honor her tragic, unlived life in a beautiful memorial service. My story is now one of healing – and I will tell it until I take my last breath and meet my precious baby in heaven.


For those of you who share my broken story, I encourage you toward this sacred healing – toward deeper grace. Death’s grip is suffocating and scary… but it’s not more powerful than the forgiveness and love found in Jesus. Don’t allow fear and shame to keep you from the restoration that God longs for you to experience. Call your local pregnancy care center and ask about their post-abortive Bible studies and retreats.


For those of you who are pregnant and afraid, I encourage you to choose life. I know the fears you are facing and the doubts that are screaming relentlessly to your heart. Silence them with the hope found in the center of grace. Whatever this looks like for you – whether it’s parenting or adoption – I implore you, from the deepest recesses of my heart, to allow your baby a chance to breathe, love, laugh and live. It will be one of the best choices you will ever make.


For those of you who don’t share my story, but who support the efforts of life-affirming ministries on the front lines of this battle, I encourage you toward generous giving. I applaud you for your participation. Because of you, lives are being saved… and diapers are being changed… and dreams are being dreamed… and God is being honored. Because of your support, sacred hearts are beating. Thank you. A thousand times: thank you.

But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. (Romans 5:20b-21)

Let’s Pray

Dear God, with a trembling heart, I approach Your throne of grace today in reverence and humility, fully aware that You are holy and I am not. Speak, Lord. Show me the plans You have for me. Bind me to Your Word and to Your strength so I will have the courage to obey, to forgive and to accept forgiveness. May my brokenness be restored for the beauty of Your glory. Please help me to trust your plan and grace. In Jesus’s name I pray, amen.

Now It’s Your Turn

Okay … take a deep breath with me! Some of you may feel disturbed that a locked door in your heart has been nudged open. I also know that 30-40% of you that are reading this devotion share my experience of abortion. There is healing and forgiveness for you, too. Through the help of my local Pregnancy Care Center, I went through a post-abortive Bible study that helped me to know complete healing. If you have not taken that step toward healing, I encourage you to contact the Abortion Recovery CARE line at 1-866-4-My-Recovery (1-866-469-7326) visit – or call your local Pregnancy Care Center today to sign up for a post-abortive Bible study or retreat.

Is there someone you know who needs to read this message? Forward this email. Post it on your social media sites. Share the hope of healing.

More from the Girlfriends

Welcome to my personal pulse. This type of transparency is always risky. My pulse races each time I expose the broken places of my past and my present – but GOD is always faithful to use it in some beautiful way. Some of you may feel this devotion was written specifically for you. Don’t ignore that. Explore it. Click here to listen to a song that I co-wrote and recorded called Broken into Beautiful, and leave a comment sharing your heart with me. We will pray over each of you!

Gwen’s full testimony is featured the book, Broken into Beautiful, along with Scriptural truths and stories of how God has brought restoration the hearts of many other women who had painful life wounds. God delights to transform lives … including your own. Experience God’s healing and hope in your life today as you read Broken Into Beautiful! To order the book, go to Amazon or for a signed copy, click here.

9 Responses to “Releasing Secrets, Restoring Hope”

  1. Donna MacLean says:

    God has made you an inspiration! Thank you for sharing your story. I particularly love your song ‘Broken into beautiful’ as it covers so many things where we feel shame from the past – and how God restores that brokenness into beauty. God gives hope and healing. Praise Him – and God bless you!

  2. Dione says:

    I am truly glad that you received the healing that you needed and that you felt liberated enough to share your story. However, I believe that your testimony bordered on a political pro-choice ad (to include referrals to a post-abortive site) that was not appropriate for this devotional. Not everyone women feels shame or that their personal choice was a wrong choice. I do respect your beliefs and your right to voice them.

  3. Susan says:

    Thank you for sharing this today. I’ve been through one of those studies myself and it is a wonderful process. Although I do miss my babies every day…I always think of how old they would be. But praise God, we will one day see each other in heaven.

  4. Sandy says:

    I agree wholeheartedly with everything you’ve shared today. I’m an abortion survivor too and I can testify that there is hope, healing and grace in the palm of God’s hand. Don’t be afraid to ask for that grace. He loves you just as much now as he did then.

  5. Janice Haywood says:

    Hi! I would talk about my 4 abortions but I can’t
    I’ve been to pastoral counseling and I still cry. I came from an abusive home. My self esteem is low and I have MDD . But I need help with the one child I did have. She’s 31 yrs old. Since the age of 13 she has felt that she had to take care of me. My depression and anxiety had me in bed, I was still getting brow beaten by my mother and my mother would talk against me to my daughter. Let me cut to the chase. My daughter is angry with me because she wants a mother. She wants love and attention. I love her so much. I dont know how! What can I do? I want desperately to heal our relationship. Thank you! Be blessed, Janice Haywood

    • Andrea Hess says:

      Hi, I read ur comment and was lead to reply …I too suffer from depression an low self esteem…..i also have a daughter that I know blames me still for why me and her father divorced……but im here to tell you God is faithful and He is all powerful…pray without ceasing……you said ur daughter wants a mom the real question is do u want to be her mom? I know u love her but do u want responsibilty of her? Pray about it and pray that the Lord will lead u to the rigtht WEdoctors to put u on the right on zoloft for my aniety and depression and then get into a bible believing church ..fight for this I did and its work but God delivers God Bless

  6. Naya says:

    Thank you sooooo much for sharing your story in this devotion Gwen! I have been living in fear and shame from an abortion I had years ago and you have encouraged me to start the journey towards healing. Thank you again! God bless you!

  7. Thank you so much for uplifting my spirits. I truly realize that I need help or support. I just don’t know where to begin. I’m feeling very confused when I awake from a nights sleep. I am single, so that helps. After retiring from a job of 25 years due to health reasons, I find myself feeling lost, abused, thinking a lot of my past failures and thinking this will never change. For 5 past years, my accomplishments keeps me in fear. Please help. Yes, I am sick. I live in Charlotte,NC, so, I,m feeling blessed. Call me at (704) 393-7576, anytime, ASAP. Sincerely, Robin

  8. CHIAMAKA says:

    ok, mine is not about abortion yeah, but this is almost eating me up, i am a student in a university, trying to recover from loads of rape in my childhood, instead of total healing, now i find myself sleeping with the only person i could trust, and the sad part is that, he’s my guardian in school and he’s also married with a kid, he is more than 30 years older than i am,i feel really stupid anytime we sleep with each other, now he doesn’t care about his wife, he wants to marry me and he says he loves me. I am terribly ashamed of myself and this had been eating me up, i just need to share it and pray i would feel better by the comments i get. Thanks alot

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